im a bad friend. bad normann, bad.

jail to the geek.
2004-09-11 @ 10:04 p.m.

i seriously need a life.

im at home on a saturday evening, listednign to loops of indian summer, sipping diluted cola, a bag of chips, clicking away to forum posts. though that sounds kinda a normal life.

scrubs first season on the download. i met a bunch of young kiddos on the bus who were making out like rabbits. they do start young dont they. and guess what, now they do listen to extend PE lessons. i miss tai chi classes during pri school. ah my geek days. what i am still now.

i wished i was an altar boy
2004-09-09 @ 11:51 p.m.

things have been a wreck actually these days. not much so much because of relationships actually. or rather lack of one.

the ever bearing pressure of work has been seeping in slowly. im begining to slowly question myself on life again. then again i always knew that particular question will never have an end to its search. im listening to city of caterpilars demo and live lp as i write, so mind me if i get a little stoned.

confession booth session made things a little lighter on a lot of accounts. thank you for not making it more awkward. though i always had this awesome picture in mind of how it would take place, then again, a nerd shall remain one.

dentist visit was awesome and ironies of all ironies i got prescribed to these dental chewing gum. to think i got caught one fine day smuggling them. thats normann. and now the mangetron will rest and feast the eyes on the malady set. yeah.

too much of nothing will kill your braincells
2004-09-05 @ 11:29 p.m.

i know i have neglected this space a bit. or rather a lot. its becoz i figured there shouldnt be many people who would be bothered to know about whats going on with me.

lets have a quick rundown of things :

1) im still working the same job.

2) im still having doubts about my future.

3) i just got a new dvd writer and printer.

4) my money just got depleted futher by $200 because of a visit to the dentist.

5) i could never be more disfunctional(correct me if im wrong, too lazy to check the blardy spelling).

6) im supposed to like finish 3 layout jobs that i havent even started on. one of which i said i was halfway done.(poor dude)

7) i have just too many email accounts to check, 2 gmail accounts, 2 hotmail accounts and 2 home accounts.

8) i've had too many movies without having enuff time to view them.

9) i havent had been going to the movies much.

10) work at the office just got a little mundane.(and to start off with there isnt any except for the usual changing of phjysical equipments.)

there you go. i think that should briefly describe my life for when i left off.

heres a link to my picture site. peace and love. drop a line. or rather just drop me.

my usually unupdated photo site

shes so lovely.
2004-07-09 @ 4:56 p.m.

inspirado before leaving for KL.

and i'm still clueless and insecure.
2004-07-08 @ 7:31 p.m.

ok so i haven't been updating this for a while. its most probably i have been writing most of this somewhere else. and futhermore with me being insecure with happening around me so far. and talk hasn't been conclusive by far. sigh. and a strong part of me left a few days ago.

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2004-05-27 @ 3:51 p.m.

it's difficult to run away when everything reminds me of you.

the cursor has stopped, the mainframe will rest.
2004-05-18 @ 8:57 p.m.

this would probably be the last entry for a long time to come. i think there will be a part or stage in life where you just wanna be alone. and i think the time was drawing ever nearer for me every single day. and now i think i shall put this body to rest. ok maybe that didnt come out that well, but what i meant was im going into a retreat.

certain things, happenings are there as signs. i have created a comfort zone for myself over the years and these past few weeks/months, these comfort zones are breached/broken. i guess its pointless to ever be in denial and say my life is ok, cause its not. and i think keeping it to myself has always been my way of creating this safe heaven for me. to paint this lovely potrait of my life has been a bliss, but living thru it hasn't.

god speed.

unbearable being of tiredness.
2004-05-12 @ 12:57 p.m.

alrite, so finally this journal has eaten someone close up. i don't know whether its good or bad but if she happens to read this again, then i don't think i should be sorry.

so we finally talked the talk. yup, old normann finally got expressive. rejection i must say was rather expected, but its rather mindful of what happened from then on. it seems like we went on as per usual. even more closer i feel. i know, who ever is reading this must be going like, what the hell. trust me, im also having that exact same thought as i key this down. wierd, just wierd. i guess letting go of things aren't the best qualities of me.

well, shafiq got hitched on the weekend. and we met up and had the usual banter and was rather fun. desaru was mentioned i must say i am really stoked on this one. oh yeah i got a haircut. though mommy commented it looked rather ladylike. well, im not complaing for someone wo just paid 6 dollars. im such a cheap ass.

to top it all off, durian cake really goes well with apple strudel. just like how i view you and me.

before - after